Aside from his new album ye, Kanye West's behavior so far in 2018 boils down to one thing: those controversial slavery comments on TMZ Live.
As soon as the world caught wind of his comments, West was widely criticized. Many alluded to a possible mental health issue — which we now know is bipolar disorder. But amidst the backlash, West's biggest worry wasn't how the public saw him. It was how his wife saw him.
While on the outside, Kanye West and Kim Kardashian seemed fine (she even defended him on Twitter), things were pretty rocky behind closed doors. In a new interview with the New York Times, West spoke candidly about how he feared his relationship was over. In fact, he said he even reached out to Kardashian's family to ask about her state of mind.
"There was a moment where I felt like after TMZ, maybe a week after that, I felt like the energy levels were low, and I called different family members and was asking, you know, 'Was Kim thinking about leaving me after TMZ?'" he told the Times. "So that was a real conversation."
She didn't leave him, of course, but she did cry about it and fight with him about it.
"Did I cry about it? Did I fight about it? Yeah. That’s not stuff we put on social media," Kim told Entertainment Tonight earlier this month. "I’m not going to start tweeting what my thoughts are, but we have those moments."In case you forgot, Kanye West had a series of controversial moments beginning in April. First, he tweeted about his love for President Trump. Then, he posted a photo wearing a "Make America Great Again" hat, which pissed off waves of people on Twitter and beyond.
Everything came to a climax in May when West implied slavery was a choice during an interview with TMZ. He says now, in this new interview, that he never actually said that and his words were misconstrued.
"I never said slavery itself — like being shackled in chains — was a choice. That's why I went from slave to 400 years to mental prison to this and that. If you look at the clip you see the way my mind works," he told the New York Times.
"I think an extreme thing; I adjust it, I adjust it, I adjust it. That’s the way I get to it, but I have to push to, you know, the furthest concept possible…" West continued. "It’s literally like I feel like I’m in court having to justify a robbery that I didn’t actually commit, where I’m having to somehow reframe something that I never said. I feel stupid to have to say out loud that I know that being put on the boat was — but also I'm not backing down, bro. What I will do is I’ll take responsibility for the fact that I allowed my voice to be used back to back in ways that were not protective of it when my voice means too much."
Kardashian has stood by West's side through all of the ups and downs while he's adjusting to life after his diagnosis of bipolar disorder. But that doesn't mean it's all been smooth sailing. You can read the full interview here.